Hello. I have a new account again. I think. I already created three blogger accounts and always forgot my username as well as my password. Honestly, I don't love writing. I'm just doing this as an outlet to my problems, heartaches, the feeling of happiness, love or anything I would love to share.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about different things. God, future, death. Name it and for sure I'll be thinking about it at night many many times before I sleep. I know doing that isn't a healthy thing to do. I'm stressing myself which is not good for me.
I'm thinking about God and what maybe his plan for the future, Maybe for Japan and other countries and as well as to the Filipno people. Hahahaha..Very patriotic. But honestly speaking I do think bout 'em. But I know God has good plans for us.
Next my future.(do I really have to talk bout it?) Anyways, its my choice about sharing this. I'm not living my life as I want it to be. I see everything as a task. I know. I should accept it first to myself so that I will have an idea to resolve this problem. I just cant express myself better. I'm afraid to fail. To try. Thinking I might be wasting my time on things that I'm not suppose to do. I'm not brave. I'm a coward. I don't know what my career line is. I'm just this. Just following the flows of life. What comes then good if not its not a problem, nothing change. I want to fight. I want to be someone I wanted to be not because life gave that to me but because I want to be that kind of person that I fought for it and do everything to have it even if destiny wont give that to me. I feel like I'm old and rushing things. For God sake pao2 your only 22! You will experience a lot of things in your life. (this is how I talk to myself) lols! hais I need something to boost my self confidence :(
Lastly, Death. I'm too young to think about that but I just cant help it. With all the calamities today no one could tell when would be your last breath. I want to live a peaceful and happy life. With the family I'll make. I want to love, cry, fear and live longer. I'm so nega (negative). I don't know why.
Honestly while writing this one. I realized that I lack trust with God. Maybe I haven't submitted myself totally to him. I know Him. I talk to Him but like any other human beings sometimes you forgot that there is God and no matter happen, good or bad, He has a good plans for you. I should always bare that in mind. I should. shouldn't rush. I should be thankful. I should take it slowly. Future is what I make. Fight, fail, fight fail until you come up with your goal of success. Thanks everyone. Love sharing this one!
